Thursday, June 16, 2011


As parents, one of the things we desire is that our children be happy. We do all we can as we raise them to teach them how to live in such a way that they will find happiness in this life. We teach them not to be mean so they will have friends ... so they will be happy. We feed them and clothe them and give them their needs and many of their wants ... so they will be happy. We try to protect them from harms and accidents ... so they will stay happy.

Granted that sometimes we have to do things that make them unhappy (like give them medicine or discipline them or make them clean things etc.) But even things things that cause temporary unhappiness are attempts to increase the chances of greater long term happiness for them.

I too want happiness for my children. Last night after I wrote my post, I went up to bed. I knelt down to say my prayers and during my prayers I had a faint but distinct impression. It was of Camille's happiness. I had the impression that she was happy - deeply and fully happy.

Many, many years ago I had a miscarriage with my very first pregnancy. I had been bleeding for almost a week when I had an impression that the baby that was going to come to our family was a very happy spirit. I felt that if she were happy even though she would have to wait longer to come to Earth, why should I be sad? That miscarriage was not sad for me after that. I knew there was a very happy spirit waiting to come to our home and if she was happy to wait, I should be happy to wait for her. And I was. What a happy blessing Sabrina was to wait for.

So last night when I had that impression of Camille's happiness, I had that same question come to my mind. If she is happy waiting, why should I be sad? She is not only happy, she is out of all danger. There is no worry that she will ever be hurt - no worry that she will be ever screw up her life, no worry that she will ever be ... unhappy.

And so I decided to be happy for her happiness. And ... I am.


m&msmommy said...

Your post yesterday and today really have me thinking SO much about things I have never thought about...I do not know the pain of losing a child and I can't even begin to imagine your pain. I am SO sorry!!!!!! But after reading your words, I've realized that the loved ones I've lost, I've never stopped and thought, "How does their seperation from us feel?" (as you had mentioned in yesterdays post)and then in today's post when you wrote about Camille being happy waiting, so why shouldn't we be happy waiting for the glorious reunion??

Beautiful posts, beautiful points made! You and your family (although I don't know you) are often in my thoughts and prayers! :)

Unknown said...

Your recent posts have served as reminders to continue lifting you all up in prayer. There are no words of comfort that I can bring to you. Sometimes I wake up and feel overwhelmed with the heaviness that Laynee's death brings each day. Some days are worse than others but it's there every single day. I that Camille and Laynee are not sad as they wait for us but I wonder how it can possibly be when we miss them with everything in us.
How long OH LORD?

A & M Ras said...

I have never commented on here before but I wanted to thank you for your post. I am not sure how I found your blog but I had been reading for about a year before I too was blessed with an angel. It is easy to get so absorbed in our pain that we forget that they are in a place free of pain and all the other wordly garbage. Thank you for that reminder. I needed that today.

Rhoda said...

I've had a similar experience, although it was with my little sister (the one I had wanted all my life and only lived for 7 days!) It is a very powerful feeling to realize how happy they are and how much love they still have for us! Thanks for reminding me of my own experience. What a happy day!

The Mounts said...

That was a beautiful post.

chercard said...

what a beautiful perspective to have!

Anonymous said...

I love those sweet powerful promptings of the Spirit. They can truly give you much peace & comfort. Heavenly Father knows exactly when we need those promptings.

Vicky T

bows and more said...

Such beautiful thoughts and inspiration! She is happy and wants you and your family to be that way too! Love your insight and inspiration!

Angie said...

I have a question, you mentioned your miscarriage and that waiting for Sabrina was worth it. I too had a miscarriage and have always wondered exactly who that baby was and what he/she was all about. Nobody (church leaders included) have been able to answer that question. It seems to all just be opinions. But the majority of those opinions have been, by far, that the miscarried child is waiting for our family in the next life, that maybe those 13 or so weeks spent developing in the tummy was all the body that particular spirit has always really bothered me that no one can give me sure answers about my baby, so I am wondering how do you know Sabrina was your miscarried baby?? Are you sure of that? Where did you get your info? I would like to think you are right because as sad and painful as the miscarriage was, if I knew I went thru it to give my child who wasn't ready more time, it would be worth it. After all, a mother would do anything for her child...some peace of mind would be such a release for me! Looking forward to your response.