Sunday, April 14, 2013

In between and Cami's Kindness Day

Sitting at the airport, leaving my love, going to my 5 little loves, my heart is torn. Having your heart in two places is not fun. I find myself in the space between two lives. One life I know and love, another full of hope and promise.

7 more weeks of living in between here and there. I want to suck up every moment of my time in homeland before I embark on this great new adventure. For all its faults, Las Vegas is still and will ever be home to me.

I had a great weekend visiting Jon. I miss him and it is hard to leave him here. I look forward to being reunited long term.

We like the house we found. Things are moving forward with it. We went to our new church congregation and we were very warmly received. I feel there are people with whom we can develop solid friendships here.

Still I know this change will mean leaving almost everyone who knew Camille. Only my brothers family will remember her with me here.

We will move into this new ward family and they will know us as a family of seven. They won't see us for the family of eight that we are. They won't ever really understand how much Camille is still an integral part of our family. If I weren't living this reality I wouldn't understand it. That is why it is the "deepest secret nobody knows."

Camille's 6th birthday is this Friday. I usually invite the whole kindergarten class to a homespun party when my kids turn 6. I think this year I will make lots of cake and ask everyone who knew her or feels they know her through me to come get some with us. We will do it Saturday when Jon will be home at 4 pm. Put it on your calendar and call or text me if you can come so I know how much cake to make.

We will have a place for people to give their "gift" of writing down what random act of kindness they did in Camille's honor.

If you can't make the party, I invite you to eat some cake and comment here with your random act of kindness. It will cheer me to have her so remembered before leaving everyone who ever knew her.

Now I better wrap up before all the people in the airport start wondering why my eyes are so leaky :).


shanan said...

Wish I could be there ...

Thinking of you guys!

Angie said...

But so many people have come to know Camille thru this blog, and so to us, it doesn't matter where you live, we know of and will always remember her as part of your family:)

Cynthia Bailey said...

Happy Birthday, Camille!

In honor of your birthday, I took doughnuts to my class this morning. (A first for this year.)They were so happy. We also watched the highlights from General Conference. It was nice to have the spirit with us this week in the midst of so much worldy turmoil.
I imagine your beautiful blue eyes are smiling down on your family today.

Chris Piske said...

There was a gentleman in one of the handicapped shopping carts at WalMart with a cart full of groceries. There were only a couple of cashiers working. He was behind me, and commented that he needed to get home and was not happy that there were so few registers open. Even though he had a full cart, I insisted he go ahead of me, and he was very grateful. Sometimes just a small gesture like this can make someone's day. I think it is awesome that you celebrate Camille with kindness day. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PRECIOUS CAMILLE!

Anonymous said...

She lives in you, every moment. I can even see her face in yours! I am not sure exactly how it all works but I cannot hold my children (especially my girls - terrible to admit that - I ADORE MY SONS!!!) without viscerally feeling the connection. She is always yours, always with you, always in you - one day to be fully & completely reunited in the presence of our Father in heaven. I hope you had a happy celebration of her day.

Anonymous said...

In honor of your Camille, I ate cherry cheeseCAKE and sent a card and check to the family of Martin Richard in Boston (Dorchester).