Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Guiding Hands

Life is so full of choices. Some times of our lives we have lots of life altering choices all at once. Other times we are faces with simple little choices everyday that only in the cumulative will make a real difference in our life. And sometimes seemingly inconsequential choices change everything. 

I am grateful for the guiding hands that help me with my choices, big and small. I am not really in a stage of BIG choices right now. I no longer have to choose who to marry or where to live or what career to pursue. Still there are important choices that lay before me. Some will have lasting effects like naming my baby. Others, like choosing friends or ways to spend my time or money, may seem small but could have long term impacts.

Through all these choices, I feel that same sense of unseen guiding hands that I did when I was making those BIG life decisions. It is like a river a peace flowing through me and carrying me down its path. Sometimes it takes me in through places I would rather not go. But as long as I follow that river of peace, I am able to drink from its Living Water. 

How grateful I am that we are not left alone in this life. I have often felt my grandparents watching over me. Now I feel an even stronger connection to the life that exists beyond the veil of death. I feel tied to that world through unbreakable heartstrings. I miss my baby girl. But I am not without her. I know her hands now help guide me.


Kristine said...

I believe that you're absolutely right, you are not alone, Camille sees you and sends you little girl kisses and smiles all day long.

She is beautiful! What a great photo.

Anonymous said...

I loved seeing that photo again. It's beautiful.



Mindy said...

That photo is wonderful. Your baby girl is so goregous.

Captain and First Officer said...

Put beautifully, Stephanie!

Amanda said...

It's so strange that you posted about this today, my friend was over on Tuesday for a play date and she and I were talking about this very same thing.

I believe the same thing. We are led through our lives to who and what we need. I see it so often in the lives of others around me all the time. It's truly, wonderous!

trishcook said...

I have been reading your blog for several months and have wanted to comment several times, but usually can't find the right words to say. This post touched me deeply...I have felt that same closeness with life beyond the veil this past year. In April it will be one year since I lost my mom to cancer and so many times I have felt her near to me supporting me, encouraging me to keep going and just being there. I know that it is the same feeling you have with your beautiful daughter Camille. What a precious gift she is and what a wonderful blessing you are to so many people. Your thoughts and words have really helped me this past several months. Thank you for sharing!

Jennie said...

Very well said. I love this picture of you with Camille. It must be such a treasure to have.

kathryn_m said...

This post touched my heart, Stephanie.

Beautifully written. I "feel"
your writings are inspired from beyond the veil too.


Marie said...

Thank you for being so open and sharing your feelings with us. Camille is so sweet and beautiful. It is good to be reminded that it is OK to miss our loved ones and to know they are just on the other side of the veil.

Janelle said...

I have read your blog for several months too, I've commented once or twice before. I loved this post. It is so true. I am in awe and humbled by the way the river moves through my life and the life of those I love. I don't know what it is like to lose a child, but my family is currently experiencing the river taking us through a course we would rather not go.
My brother-in-law Robert was diagnosed with leukemia in Nov. 2007. He fought the good fight with four rounds of chemo and a bone marrow transplant. He has been doing really well, even grew his hair back! Then this past Friday he got a call from his doctor that they found more leukemia cells in his routine follow-up blood work. He is back in the hospital receiving chemo and will need another bone marrow transplant. I'm telling you all this because I have often prayed for someone that you posted on your blog who was going through a difficult time/health issue in their life. I would love it if you could put up a post about him and ask for prayers for him. His name is Robert Ashworth, and we too live in Las Vegas!
If you wouldn't mind also posting a link to the blog we are keeping up for them, that would be great too. We will need to do some fund raising for him this time around, because his insurance was so depleted the first go-around. I have seen the power of the blogging community on cjane and nienie's blogs!
Thank you! Thank you for your words, openess, insights and for just being you. There have been many times that I have read 'just what I needed' on your blog. You are truly inspirational!
With Love,
Janelle Gratteau

Their blog address is

Anonymous said...


I have noticed that in some of your posts you have said what a poor sleeper you are; even before the accident. I too am a poor sleeper and it comes from my father, as well. Anyway, I woke up in the night and couldn't sleep. I started thinking about you and all you have been through. I felt inspired to say a prayer for you and your family. Just know that prayers are still being said on your behalf and will continue for a long time to come.