Tuesday, July 1, 2008

In response to some comments...

Just a few notes here:

First, I welcome all visitors to my blog.  If you want to put links to my blog on your blog that is fine with me.  If you don't know me and want to post a comment, I welcome it. Comments are one of the highlights of my day lately. 

Those who know me, know I am a very open person (sometimes too open some might say) and I consider myself pretty honest.  I do not lie well.  I don't even exaggerate well. Exaggeration bothers me. I think the truth, even when it is boring, is better than an exaggerated story passed off as truth.  So if you were wondering how I can just put myself out there like this... well I guess it is just my nature.  Plus writing here everyday has been like therapy for me.  Writing has always been like therapy for me.

And yes I remember you Christie and Danielle and my other high school friends.  I can't believe how many old friends have found their way to this blog.  Thanks for your comments.

How do I believe in God when bad things happen? -- Hard not to believe in Him when you can feel His arms so fully wrapped around you.  I have corresponded with several other people of different faiths in my same situation and God has been there for all of them too.  God doesn't prevent broken hearts.  He heals them.

Yes we are on at my house at 8:30 this Wednesday for So You Think You Can Dance.  All are welcome that know me well enough to know where I live :).  

Thanks to all you out there listening, commenting, and living differently.  I love you all.

17 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh, I'm glad you don't mind linking. I "spotlighted" you on my blog because I find you amazing. You seem like me---an open book.

Heather H said...

I too am glad that you dont mind "strangers" linking your blog to theirs. I found you through a link and have shared your link on my blog. You have a beautiful testimony and are a wonderful mother. Thank you for being so open so that we may all learn from you. Your family is in my prayers as I am trying to be a little bit better of a mom each day. And all the photos are beautiful thank you for sharing them.

Emily said...

I, like many others, have been reading your blog for some time, but have not yet commented. I have nothing new and different to say, but I just want you to know that your strength amazes me. I am dealing with some difficult things in my life right now, but they are nothing compared to the loss of a child. (I'm not sure how I would cope if that happened to me.) I have had difficulty staying strong through my difficulties, but you are a great example to me and countless others. Thank you for continuing to share your story. I hope that I will some day come to rely on the Lord to the extent that you do.

Heather Gibb said...

Stephanie I have loved reading your blog and staying updated on your sweet family. You have such insight and a wonderful ability to express yourself and touch others with your writing. I think the "flowers" for each girl is wonderful. I have had the pleasure of photographing a family over the last 4 yrs. They lost their 2 yr old to a tragic accident also. They have a flower that symbolizes him and for each session we have done since, we have the flower in the picture with the family. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with your family.
Heather Gibb

kimbo said...

I have been reading your blog since Camille's death and have shed so many tears for you and your family. (Your sister-in-law Darleen is a friend of a friend and I hope we'll become better friends now that I live in Connecticut). I appreciate your testimony. It really strengthens my own. I feel the Spirit testify that it is true as I read your heartfelt words. Thank you.
Kim Scriber

Crystal D said...

There are some days I don't comment because you have move me so deeply with your beautiful words and your deep pain that I think nothing I say could make a difference to you. But do know that with every post I am thinking about you and praying for you and your family. Stay strong dear mom.

EvaMarieva said...

This last week I was at Girls Camp and the focus was on being your own kind of beautiful and during the morning sides I thought of what a beautiful person both you and Jon are and how much you are loved. I have shared your blog because of the example you are. Thank you for being so open during this trial because it is a blessing for us to share it with you.

Megan Dougherty said...

Stephanie,
Thank you so much for being yourself. Your words have been such a strength to me. I daily look forward to reading your blogs and still pray for you and your family. If there is anything I can do for you let me know. Even if you want some free voice lessons for fun or a night of babysitting which would be more of a treat for Maddy to have some playmates. I feel like I need to do something for every time you have spiritually uplifted me through your daily writings. Thanks!

Catherine Noorda said...

often when i read your blog, steph, i'm reminded of this song that i love that teaches us to put our faith in Heavenly Father and let him heal us. the part you just wrote about how the Savior wraps his arms around you through the most difficult times is so true.

here's a link to the song. i hope it works.

https://tantararecords.securesites.com/mp3/CUH/CUH_6.mp3?PHPSESSID=464b91b0a2710a7da152eac593cf879e

i said...

I say dido to all of the other comments. I have gained so much and am amazed at all of the good that can come from such a tragic thing for your family. Thanks for reaching out to so many during such a hard time for you. Lots of love, Julie

Amy C. said...

You don't know me but I came across your blog through another link and have been "checking" on you daily. Your grief weighs heavy on my mind - I think it's a mother thing - even though we don't know each other our souls are connected through the love we have for our children. Just know that there's someone up in North Las Vegas who's thinking of you and praying for your comfort. Remember how the angels came and helped push the handcarts with the weary Willie and Martin handcart companies? They never saw them but they felt them. I am positive that there are many of us out there who are silently helping you "push your handcart." Keep hanging in there!

Alisha said...

I 'blog hop' and today I linked you from a friend of a friend. I like to skim through blogs,look at pictures,get tips,etc. Anyway, I came to your blog, skimmed and the Post "A New Reason" caught my eye. For whatever reason I started reading the 3rd paragraph and your testimony deeply moved me. I read your testimony 3 times, I loved it so much! It was then that I decided to read through your other posts and I was not expecting to read such devastating news and through tears I read all your posts. You have an eloquent way of sharing your feelings. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious baby. I normally wouldn't post a comment on a stranger's blog..but I just wanted to let you know you seem like an amazing person. Today I came home and gave my kids an extra squeeze.

Lant Family said...

I am a stranger who found your blog through a link on another friends blog. I have really enjoyed reading your blog and learning about your life and your family. I think you and your family and very inspirational. I have learned so much about myself and my testimony by reading your blog. I sometimes find my testimony to be disappearing sometimes and reading your blog I have felt is grow and I DO know the things you say on your blog are true. Thank you also for helping me be and want to be a great Mom. I have a 2 year old, days get hard with her like any 2 year old. I have been more aware of her presence and her sweet little spirit she has in our home since starting to read your blog. I know that you will be with your Daughter again! You will be in our prayers. Thanks for being open and sharing your story and touching so many strangers. (I feel like I know you)

Waggoner Family said...

I found your blog through some friends blog and I just wanted you to know how beautiful your entries are. You will be in our thoughts and prayers. I know that our Heavenly Father will hold you and support you.

Nicole said...

A friend of mine, Natalie Tingey told me about your blog. She has been inspired by your words and told me that I should read it. I wasn't going to comment but just sit, tear up and read but I felt impressed to say thank you for opening up like you have about the recent events that have transpired with the loss of your daughter, Camille. (my sister's name is Camille - love it). What a beautiful little baby girl. I am deeply sorry for your loss and pain but appreciate your strength and testimony. You have a beautiful family!
Nicole V,, VT
mother of five daughters

Anonymous said...

I'm glad I read your "old" posts because I was wondering if it was appropriate for me, a "stranger", to comment. My name is Brieanne and I clicked on a link to your blog from a friend (Amber Horspool). I have spent the better part of this morning reading about your recent experiences. I am quite sure you have heard countless "I'm so sorry"s , so I will just say that YOU are an inspiration. I cannot fathom suffering such a loss AND being so strong, so virtuous, so FAITHFUl despite it. I especially appreciate that you are sharing your beautiful testimony with the world. I have felt the Spirit while reading your words, and thank you for that. You are an exquisite writer, and I am quite certain an amazing woman. May the light and the love of the Lord continue to shine on you and through you on both the good days and the bad.
Sincerely,
Brieanne Witte.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I have been crying for 2 days since I read about your new angel Camille. My 2 year old asked me why I was crying and all I could do was hold her and sob. I can't imagine what your family has gone through! You seem like such a strong woman...an amazing mother. I am changed because of your words and experience! I will never forget you or your angel.