What I AM doing.
Surrounding myself with loved ones.
Reading scriptures, conference talks, etc... lots ... alone, with Jon, and with the girls
Praying ... lots and lots ... as individuals, a couple, and a family
Allowing myself 15 minutes each morning and night to cry in my closet and just let all the hurt out.
Trying to get back to normal life -- (went to pilates today)
Loving and cherishing my kids
Talking to my kids about Camille
Repenting ... Sincerely ... Every day -- to ensure I am as pure as Camille is pure
Going to the temple
Trying to keep my mind firmly on today and not let it wander to last Friday
Trying to learn and grow all I can from this loss
What I am NOT Doing ...
Asking why me. I don't believe in that question.
Crying with every person who comes over, even if They cry on My shoulder
Blaming -- not me, not any member of my family, and NOT God
My dishes (thanks family ;)
Cooking (thanks my sisters in the gospel)
Writing my talk for the funeral (been blogging instead)
Dressing Camille -(thanks Moms)- want to remember her how she looked before the autopsy
Pulling away from my husband
Being angry or feeling life is unfair
Well I think I better change one of those. Better move the "writing my talk for the funeral" up to the "DOING" list.
Good night and again THANK YOU for your support and all those prayers from all of you known and unknown. I REALLY feel their strength pulling me through each day and especially each night. I am frankly overwhelmed by all this loving support.