I think this has been the longest February of my life. I am not sure why. Maybe it is because it started on a Sunday so it has been 4 full weeks of February. Usually it takes me 5 or 6 days to realize we are in a new month and that makes February feel like 3 weeks. Or maybe it just how pregnant I am getting to be.
Either way, I am glad to have February under my belt at last. March promises to be a busy month with 2 girls weekends, a baby shower, Jonathan and my 10th Anniversary, visits from family, kids out of school, projects planned for our family to do, and LOTS of church activities and work. I am hoping all of this will make March fly by quickly and be enjoyable in the flying.
April, well, that will likely be another story. I am not sure any amount of planning can make the last month of pregnancy feel fast, but we will see.
One of my projects planned for March is to go through all our children's clothing. Since they will be on track break and able to help, I want to plow through this "spring cleaning" chore. Their dressers seems so full and yet each week it seems they have nothing to wear by Friday. Hmmmm. I am going to have to go discover why this is.
Another somewhat scary part of this is going through all the baby stuff including the clothes 3T and under. I still haven't done that. All of the baby gear is in storage in my parents garage. It has been there since Camille's accident when my sister in laws packed it all up for me. I will have to go through everything and decide what to keep and what to give away or throw away.
Usually I am a keeper. I don't want to have to buy more baby clothes and we have the storage room. But with this baby being a boy, well, even if the next one is a girl I just don't think I will be wanting to use most of our baby girl clothes. That is especially true of the clothes we still have from Sabrina's baby days.
But, I will pull out all the clothes I bought specifically for Camille. There aren't too many. Those will go in a special hope chest. And I do have a few special dresses for each girl from their baby days to save for them. It will no doubt be an emotional chore. I see my girls growing up so quickly. Camille's death made our little family so much older in so many ways.
I am glad to be having a boy now and hope to have a brother for this little guy. But, a part of my heart really wants to have one more little girl. I guess we will have to see. Those are things to pray about in future prayers. At least I know I have one little girl waiting for me to raise her and when I am able to do that, it will be without the distraction of so many earthly worries.
So bring on March! I may be waddling through it, but I am ready for it none the less.
