tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post1223072432211828827..comments2024-02-10T10:20:14.121-08:00Comments on A Daily Scoop: Feeling the Weight of the WorldStephanie Waitehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08952237536421682841noreply@blogger.comBlogger40125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-19943721017987147312008-08-15T22:57:00.000-07:002008-08-15T22:57:00.000-07:00I'm sorry you had a really hard day. We all l...I'm sorry you had a really hard day. We all love you and your family and pray for you.<BR/><BR/>I suddenly suffered from post partum depression with one of my children. I had know idea what was going on with me and why I couldn't control it. Why I couldn't pray it away. And then it went from just "post partum" to feeling long term. <BR/><BR/>As I do all I can to recover and get better from it, I still don't understand it. I know it's a "sickness", but it is a sickness I think Satan must love turning into one of his "tools" against us. Instantly it went from a mental sickness to a spiritual one. (if that makes any sense?) I couldn't get over why I didn't feel any control over my happiness. And had to humble myself to a pill taken everyday for that.<BR/><BR/>I guess I felt like writing all this because, before Camille's accident I felt that even though I was feeling at my lowest -mentally & physically & spiritually- Somewhere I still had hope that I could be healed. I wasn't going to let "depression defeat me"... but most days I was close, it was a small speck of hope.<BR/><BR/>After Camille's accident, her sacrifice, and mission ~ I want you to know that it has given me knew life and energy to overcome this challenge. I have felt more in control of my happiness then the past two years of sudden depression. I have a new perspective on life and my individual self worth.<BR/><BR/>How did she do that? :) Thank you Camille and thank you Stephanie for writing your "therapy".Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-62124944437789078212008-08-15T21:22:00.000-07:002008-08-15T21:22:00.000-07:00You are a wonderful example to me. I have 5 child...You are a wonderful example to me. I have 5 children and can honestly say that since finding your blog I have hugged them a little more, used a softer voice, been a little more patient, and just enjoyed the mommy moments a little more. Thank you for opening your world to us all so we all can learn from your wisdom. Camille sure had a special mission in helping so many become better people. And she sure has a special Mommy. I hope Oprah does a show on you someday--because you truly are touching so many lives as you share your own. Thank you for letting us all into your world. The effects are immeasurable.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-3712872005403888722008-08-15T15:39:00.000-07:002008-08-15T15:39:00.000-07:00Your whole family's names are in the temple (proba...Your whole family's names are in the temple (probably more than one.) I pray you will feel extra angels holding you up. You are being prayed for around the clock. <BR/>Love the quote.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-68781868195299769362008-08-15T15:16:00.000-07:002008-08-15T15:16:00.000-07:00I haven't lost a child, but I have been through th...I haven't lost a child, but I have been through the grief process. The day you describe sounds like a very normal part of the grief process to me. Be patient with yourself as you heal. Allow yourself time to lie down, pull the covers over your head and cry. You have been so strong, but sometimes you have to just let yourself feel what you feel.......you've been through so much, and you've suffered a great loss. Even the Savior wept when He lost a loved one. It's very normal when you're grieving for everyday things to become overwhelming. Just take it as a signal that it's time to pamper yourself a little and allow yourself to feel what you feel. It's all part of the healing process.<BR/><BR/>I hope you don't mind some advice from one of the many strangers who appreciate you so much!!!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-7080921387047181822008-08-15T13:25:00.000-07:002008-08-15T13:25:00.000-07:00I pray that today is a happy day...I pray that today is a happy day...jilljohnandhopehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07479179541418540947noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-21314214437638315032008-08-15T13:17:00.000-07:002008-08-15T13:17:00.000-07:00Stephanie,You are the only one that can answer thi...Stephanie,<BR/>You are the only one that can answer this question. But honestly and truly you might need an antidepressant. There are many of us who have had to use them during hard times. It does not mean you are weak. And it does not mean the Savior can't help you. Because, He obviously is. It also doesn't mean you will have to take it the rest of your life. Please don't be offended by this comment. I am a mother of adult children and have faced many challenges in that calling. So, as a mother of adult children, one who could be your mother-Think about it. I have a testimony of the gospel. I know the Atonement works. I KNOW it. But I can also see that sometimes we need other things to help us through trials. You are a precious wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend. Take care of yourself. My prayers ae with you and your family daily. With much love....Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-41405804055566749852008-08-15T11:15:00.000-07:002008-08-15T11:15:00.000-07:00Awesome quote. I think a good deal of us could use...Awesome quote. I think a good deal of us could use that quote hung up in our homes. Depression can be so suffocating in a sneak up on you kind of way.Marleenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08048818925662914087noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-80691303938479330062008-08-15T10:49:00.000-07:002008-08-15T10:49:00.000-07:00You will never believe how much I needed to read t...You will never believe how much I needed to read this post today. I have never experienced a loss such as you have, but I have been going thru depression and I will write out this quote to put by my bedside. You minister to me daily. Thank you for sharing your heart.Mimi's Toeshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06918834487225748283noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-15673531206143997422008-08-15T10:12:00.000-07:002008-08-15T10:12:00.000-07:00Stephanie--don't forget we all love you and contin...Stephanie--don't forget we all love you and continue to pray for your family. I wish I was in town to give you a little back massage and treat you to a pedicure. I know it's little but sometimes it helps take your mind off things.Darleenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06127216243226617713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-44807519818143045082008-08-15T09:49:00.000-07:002008-08-15T09:49:00.000-07:00Hi Stephanie:I just wanted to echo the sentiments ...Hi Stephanie:<BR/><BR/>I just wanted to echo the sentiments of a few other posters.<BR/><BR/>Please don't allow this blog or, more specifically, others' blessings from it to become a burden to you.<BR/><BR/>As you so eloquently pointed out last week, this blog is your expression of what makes you feel good - things from which you draw strength.<BR/><BR/>No one expects you to be perfect and while many people, myself included, are inspired by your posts, these blessings are merely a serendipitious affect of your writing talent.<BR/><BR/>This blog must ultimately be for you as you take the most difficult test of your life -- a test without time limits.<BR/><BR/>Be gentle with yourself and allow yourself to have bad days without apology. You are experiencing all mother's worst nightmare.<BR/><BR/>I hope I have been able to convey my heart. You have so much on your plate. Please do not feel - however unintentional - that you have a greater responsibility than that which now faces you and your family.<BR/><BR/>I guess what I am trying to say is that the blessings that we have felt are a delightful benefit to us and hopefully not felt as a burden or expectation by you.<BR/><BR/>Many blessings to you & yours ....<BR/><BR/>kathryn_mAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-7691738666374179652008-08-15T09:26:00.000-07:002008-08-15T09:26:00.000-07:00Stephanie, I've been checking in on your blog peri...Stephanie, I've been checking in on your blog periodically over the past two months. I too have experienced the death of a beloved daughter. In answer to your question today, I can't think of any biographies of Queen Victoria off the top of my head but there is a wonderful movie (easier to stay awake) called Victoria and Albert. I believe it is a BBC movie. Victoria's home (Windsor Castle) is my favorite place to visit in England. I hope you don't mind my leaving a comment.Lesleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17576989571148903028noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-9834795204511866472008-08-15T08:25:00.000-07:002008-08-15T08:25:00.000-07:00The weight of an elephant is an apt description. ...The weight of an elephant is an apt description. And, it helps to understand what so hard (for me) to understand the weight of the world that was on Christ that caused him to bleed through every pore.<BR/><BR/>I'm sorry you had a bad day. You are very entitled. There are things in this mortality that are very hard to go through and there's just no question about that you will feel pain and anguish. This is a delicate time for you, one that makes you more susceptible to the forces of the adversary, but one that will also cause you to grow and exceed anything you thought you were capable of doing, part of being refined. I'm so sorry you're missing your little girl today. The mind finds that so hard to comprehend. You're only human.<BR/><BR/>Hugs, LeslieLesliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03201285638228235204noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-44436134787082093332008-08-15T08:23:00.000-07:002008-08-15T08:23:00.000-07:00Another anonymous fan and first time poster. I ju...Another anonymous fan and first time poster. I just saw Evan Almighty for the first time recently. The film is not my favorite, but better than I thought it would be and full of some interesting messages. There were some words from Morgan Freeman that hit me hard especially after reading your post last night. Morgan Freeman, who plays God but is disguised as a waiter for this scene, is trying to explain to Evan's wife why Evan is building the ark. The story is not as important as his words: <BR/><BR/>"If someone prays for patience, do you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient?" He goes through this same line of questioning with courage. And then says "If someone prays for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings? Or does he give them opportunities to love each other?" <BR/><BR/>Those words make me think twice about what I pray for. ;) They help me realize to focus more on the process of becoming than the immediate pain. <BR/><BR/>I wish I was technologically savy enough to pull a clip link for you, but if you get the movie, the scene is around the one hour mark. It's much better to hear the words with Morgan Freeman's gentle yet confident voice.<BR/><BR/>Here's to better days ahead . . .Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-58464901560025245112008-08-15T08:06:00.000-07:002008-08-15T08:06:00.000-07:00"What will matter is whether we became more like C..."What will matter is whether we became more like Christ or not. Did we use our talents to help us become more like Christ?"<BR/><BR/>WOW! I love this! I so needed to hear this as well as the quote you posted.Jesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06808044515953511538noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-5650006543646257052008-08-15T07:54:00.000-07:002008-08-15T07:54:00.000-07:00Stephanie, I typed in a comment, but must have p...Stephanie,<BR/> I typed in a comment, but must have pushed the wrong button, so if you get another comment saying basically the same thing- that's why. :) <BR/>I am sorry that you are feeling the weight of the world on your shoulders. You are entitled to bad days. You are enduring well- even in your darkest hours. It is obvious by your writing, that you are becoming more like Christ every day. You are amazing. To paraphrase you- "Remember who you are and the Queen that Camille knows you can be." I hope tomorrow is a better day.Jenniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13874756871420984377noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-18232349332014728832008-08-15T07:33:00.000-07:002008-08-15T07:33:00.000-07:00I just wanted to say real quick how I don't really...I just wanted to say real quick how I don't really agree with the last quote, the way I read it is depression=defeat and I don't believe that. I hope you don't think so. I have struggled with depression probably my whole life even when I didn't know it I had it. I don't think depression=defeat I think it is just another trial so many have to go through. That quote just seems to me to say if you have depression you have failed and in no way is that what depression is. I just had to say something because I hope no one ever thinks that depression means defeat. I do love reading your blog and you are such an amazing woman. I admire your strength and the clarity you have though all of this. EmilyEmhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00833792350541064746noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-84753138079288537502008-08-15T07:21:00.000-07:002008-08-15T07:21:00.000-07:00I stop here everyday for my "daily scoop". Sometim...I stop here everyday for my "daily scoop". Sometimes I feel like you have been with me all day and know just what I need to hear. Thank you for being so candid and open. You have taught me and countless others, many lessons in the last few months. I hope that you can find comfort in the love that people all around you and even the ones that only exist in the blog world, have for you and your family.Sarahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15330695991291642216noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-31454029216440662052008-08-15T07:01:00.000-07:002008-08-15T07:01:00.000-07:00Stephanie,Several nights ago, I spent 3 hours read...Stephanie,<BR/><BR/>Several nights ago, I spent 3 hours reading your blog and sobbing. I am so sorry for your loss. <BR/><BR/>You are an amazing woman. I admire your strength. As I sat there reading, I thought to myself, I could never deal with that.<BR/><BR/>And then I remembered that on our own, no, we couldn't deal with it. Fortunately, we have the Holy Ghost to be with us and comfort us in times of grief.<BR/><BR/>I am so proud to see that this has drawn you closer to the gospel, because I have seen trials like this push people away.<BR/><BR/>You are amazing. Thank you for sharing your story with me.The Momhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03598100948954732351noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-13539078217704598022008-08-15T07:00:00.000-07:002008-08-15T07:00:00.000-07:00I came across this youtube video (a portion of a B...I came across this youtube video (a portion of a BYU devotional by Elder F Enzio Busche of the Seventy put to music and pictures) and I thought of you. It is just seven minutes and is well worth the time to get a little uplift!<BR/><BR/>http://www.youtube.com/v/snAjZ8mfoYw&hl=en&fs=1<BR/><BR/>PS> Like this little video your blog provides so many of us a little uplift each day - so thanks!Tarahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01435108291991483525noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-45205308350309523992008-08-14T22:53:00.000-07:002008-08-14T22:53:00.000-07:00Amen is right--- I am really struggling and Amen t...Amen is right--- I am really struggling and Amen to that. Thanks for sharing Stephanie, you just supported me more than you even though. Thank you for your testimony....<BR/><BR/>Be blessed, friend.<BR/><BR/>Julie<BR/>SacramentoAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-28846131422668706332008-08-14T22:31:00.000-07:002008-08-14T22:31:00.000-07:00Huggs! We are here for you always. Please know yo...Huggs! We are here for you always. Please know you don't have to carry the weight of the world alone, that we are here with you. Love you tons. My prayers are with you and your family. Give me a call if you need anything. <BR/>Loves!Liz's Bloghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16564593795412378294noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-48597097144138389102008-08-14T21:54:00.001-07:002008-08-14T21:54:00.001-07:00Awesome Post!!!Awesome Post!!!Just me!https://www.blogger.com/profile/08996197767073965107noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-10609545980596021782008-08-14T21:54:00.000-07:002008-08-14T21:54:00.000-07:00Just wanted to say thank you for being so honest. ...Just wanted to say thank you for being so honest. I still think you are amazing. You are the same person you were before the accident, you just have certain parts of you greatly enhanced. Kim MeechudhoneAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-81488416788092408082008-08-14T21:20:00.000-07:002008-08-14T21:20:00.000-07:00It's an agreement I made with myself, a long, long...It's an agreement <BR/>I made with myself, <BR/>a long, long time ago.<BR/>Simply said, it states, <BR/>"Let each day<BR/>be it's own reward."<BR/><BR/>It's especially effective <BR/>when a day makes demands<BR/>that challenge the heart<BR/>and test the soul.<BR/>Days when life seems <BR/>some sort of <BR/>sad conspiracy, <BR/>and the world<BR/>is unkind and cold. <BR/><BR/>It helps then<BR/>to see each day<BR/>as a generous gift, <BR/>in and of itself.<BR/>And as long as life<BR/>still breathes in me, <BR/>I will accept every 24 hours<BR/>for it's own dear sake. <BR/><BR/>For without this day, <BR/>as trying as it<BR/>may prove to be,<BR/>tomorrow will never <BR/>come to me. <BR/><BR/>(I did not compose these words myself, but I have carried them with me forover 30 years)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7260216734032540750.post-67424338145670748532008-08-14T21:14:00.000-07:002008-08-14T21:14:00.000-07:00Stephanie: I sometimes worry about you and the res...Stephanie: I sometimes worry about you and the responsibility you might feel from this blog. Please know that even though we all love and cherish your inspiring messages we also love you, and are most concerned about your healing. Pain is part of healing so it's ok for you to have days when you feel depressed and sad. None of us out here in "blogland" expect more of you than you can offer. Please be kind to yourself, patient with yourself, giving yourself permission to have a bad day. You have given so much to all of us - please remember to give to you too. We all love you.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com